Man. It’s been a LONG TIME since I last wrote anything on my blog. I don’t have any excuses, really. Other than the fact that I’ve been really frickin’ busy with work, wedding planning, life stuff, podcast stuff, self-doubt stuff…
Anyways. I have issues like everyone else. What else is new, right?
With a week of Chinese holidays now in the books, I took some time to think about what’s important to me right now. I’m one of those people who can be incredibly self-critical about myself, with a (positive?) tension between being satisfied and really impatient about where I am in my life.
Sometimes, I think I do enough in my life to be fulfilled. Sometimes, I think the exact opposite. Do you ever have those moments where you accomplish something meaningful, that took a lot of work and sacrifice, and then you feel happy for a microsecond? And then one microsecond later, you’re right back in self-doubt mode. Thinking about how to hustle. How to do more and still feeling unfulfilled. Being unable to smell the roses, because the roses have already withered up and died.
So yeah…tonight, I’m going to handwrite a list of things that I’m grateful for. In the last six months. I have to find the time to be grateful.
And at the VERY LEAST, I’m writing something again. Outside of work emails and Powerpoint presentations. Need to try and keep it up.